Saturday, June 23, 2007 05:39
looked at sum photo albums in my closet..how i was like during primary skool days..how i was like during secondary skool days..how i was like during my first few years in poly..and how am i gonna be like after my poly life.yes, dat means my working life too..i've tried so hard not to think abt it..but i cant run away from reality cant i?how fast tyms flies huh?how fast things change..how fast i've left behind all my past*..how fast i've grown to be a young adult.eeewwww...the last sentence doesn't seems so rite..i mean, whu wouldn't want to become a senior enginneer, software analyst, senior technical officer at e age of 25/26..whu would decline dat kinda post which earn nearly 3-5 per mnth?imagine 5k per month. how much i can spent per day..and how month i can earn per year..goshh this is heaven!!!they say, once u've got a degree..snap snap they'll put u at e top.hahaa..i cant imagine myself..1. geting dat kinda pay per month..2. having e coolest notebook..3. being in my very own office..4. wearing those corporate kinda clothing..5. having my own LV/Gucci hand bag..6. driving my mini cooper/volksvagen..goshh am i dreaming?haha.of coz i am..whu am i anyway?juz lil miss NoBoDY..but if i ever got dat chance, i wouldnt wanna risk it.duhhh...when im wif my cuzz..(they're only 15-17 mind u)we talked about everything..they're now goin tru wat i've gone tru before..how much fun it is wen they told me they did this and that..how much fun it is to try out sumthing new* in life..and how much fun it is to be happy..i've been der. i've done dat.BUT, at tyms, i still wanna do all those things..i still wanna enjoy myself like i used to..i still wanna laugh and cry and shout everywer i go..i still wanna dress up and look fugly..i still wanna lepak wif my group of frens till late nyt, updating n bitching each other..i still wanna do all sort of things without anyone stopping me.i can actuallie, but not to e extreme anymore..ders this word called restrictions.yes, RESTRICTIONS.i cant do this.i cant do dat.its not gud to do this.its not gud to do dat.my mum says its for my own good.
me: asal sey org da tkleh buat benda mcm dulu2 lagi..
bukannyer nadia buat benda tk senonoh pe..
her: bukan tk boleh,boleh. tapi ko pk la.lau ko buat pape pat luar tu,
skali family ke sedare iman nampak.. mcm mane? ko tk malu ke?
me: nk malu watpe sey. kan da kenal. tegur je lah..
her: tegur tu tegur, tapi kan ko da leave them a bad impression on urself.
me: ouhh.. alaaa.. leceh ar..
her: and lau ko buat benda mcm dulu2, ko rase iman suke ke?
me: ntah.. mestilah tk..
her: abis tu.. lau ko lum kenal family dier tkpe jugak..
me: haizzzz...
no wonder...all this while ayg dearest is so particular abt1. wat i wear2. wat i do3. wer i go 4. wif whomouhhhhhh...for future rupenyer...PS: but i dun think im ready YET.
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