Take me from the past of all my mistakes to where the future lies

Tuesday, October 31, 2006 15:34

surprisingly, i manage to attend my lesson todae.
ya. as in all. lab n lecture plus my nyt class.

since i've got a few hours of free tym..
had my lunch at FJ wif my gerek kakis..
always laugh n non stop laughing wen im weif em.
decided to drop my MCG room to meet my beautifools darls..
seeing them always make me smile, no matter wat mood i am in..
lurve u all gfs!!

bedahkuz gave me this belated prezzie..
haz n fyza pun dapat.we all received a mini letter from her too.

fyZa'S mine n Haz's

mine says:
DYA!
it's a MAHA belated gift ok!
hehe. wishing u all e best in ur
studies N of crs wif ur RizzMAN!
hehe. Thou we always miss US with khai!
Tose "Single" Times. We mus now Stay FAITHFUL.=)
hehe u noe ur my GREATEST GF*! muwah!

i gave her a peck on da cheeks la ehh!!
sorie eh wawan..
we might not be as rapat coz we both haf our own love life now,
BUT im glad.. we still undastand each otha juz as much as we used to.
i lurve u.. u noe dat too kan Gf*?

went fer my nyt class afta dat.
i think yoko n rizal kinda pissed off wif me.
but i think they lorve it coz they laugh wif me..
lalalala..
thanx eh..
fer making my nyt a fun n crazy one.. lurvee!!!

tmr's meeting cancelled!! yaye-ness!!!

ok im werking tmr.

i need sum rest.bye!!

Monday, October 30, 2006 07:38

hmm..
1 week of raye had past.
now gonna concentrate more on production itself.
i duno la.
tue got tarian meeting.
n i hafta go back to werk afta dat.
haizz..

goshh..
i think im too busy fer this month la.
sorie sayangs if i wouldnt be abled to join u guys fer jalan raye.
im only free after e 2nd wek of NOV!!!
take note k?..

my everydae daily routine
mondae- nyt class(till9.30)
tuesdae- werk(till 10)
wednesdae-tarian prac(depends)
thursdae- training(till 9.30)
fridae- i need sum rest(skool till 5)
sat n sundae- werking.(11-6, mayb till nyt)

now, i duno how im able to manage myself.
production drawing near.
urghh.. practices are like fer e 1st 2 weeks of NOV.
which means i cant haf any other plans besides TRAININGS!!!
haiz..
i juz wished production cud end as fast as possible..
so dat i can haf my normal life back again.

i think i AM Ms. Spendthrift.
thanx ayul fer dat!!!

Sunday, October 29, 2006 01:18

went hari raya-ing wif my dad yest.
right afta werk.

i think i recognize him.
he seems familiar.
even e name is da same.
BUT..
he couldnt be..
nvm..
worst!!
my da n him is so close!!!
omg!!!

went johor.
im so in love wif da houses der la..
they are selling like fer 400 thousand m'sia ringgit,
plus renovation n all.
god damm e house are big!!!
wif e ohh-so-lovely garden n big big master bedroom upstairs..
it cud be juz 165 thousand dollars spore dollar!!!
omfg!!! i soooo want dat house in future..

reached home around 1am.
i need rest.
tmr hari raya-ing wif mum pulak.
cant wait!!!

and oh ya.
my first day of raya..
was more den perfect!!!
tho e feeling of celebrating wasn't der,
e moment i woke up frm bed..
i duno la.
mayb coz im not reallie looking forward into it.
haizz..
ohh god pls forgive my sins all this while..
amin.

met cuzzins!!!
aunts!!
uncles!!
im happy..
shud have more get together moments la.

aunt: kau kenal anak cik salmah tk?
me: huh? sape cik salmah sey?
aunt: sdare kiter la.
me: eh? ntah. tk.
aunt: dier ckp dier kenal kau. slalu nampak aku pat skola.
aunt: dier ckp kau masok tarian kan..
me: ah ah. but spae sey..
me: camne plak dier kenal nadia eh? hmmm..
aunt: mak long da ckp lau nampak kau tegur.
me: eh? oh okok.

i've got a cuzzin n i dunch noe who..
weird is dat she noe me..
i got this strange feeling la..
eeeee...

Friday, October 27, 2006 14:04

i simply hate it wen all e sacrifices i made are not being appreciated.
heh.

u wanted this.
i gave u this.
u wanted dat.
i gave u dat.
YET, i received NONE from u.
now im lost n pissed.
sumone pls get me back on track.
b4 its tooo late.

in short.
i dunch noe y tho i haf everything, i still feel empty.
(ni part tk klaka la ehh. free2 pe)

my love,
thanx!!
fer being der.
fer hearing me.
fer e arguments.
fer making me realised.
fer making me cry.
fer making me smile.
fer being my love.
much appreciated.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006 14:58

wake up in da morning.
not feeling well la.
got skool sumore.
haizzz..
was shocked la.
ade org ketuk pintu.
i tot my cousins or wat.
skali its mansor n simon.
hahahahz..
e 2 fastest rider at werk
was shocked la wen they hand me my "kain"

me: eh both doin here"?
simon: nah ur stuffs.
me: u serious not? den whu pay e tailor?
mansor n simon: ntah. boss i think.
me: huh? u sure not? nah take this..
(handing em 10 bux to pay to boss)
mansor: ala. kasi bos sendiri la.
simon: eh inside got ang pao fer u.
me: huh? ang pao? fer wat sey? u sure it's mine?
mansor: aiya u juz msg boss say thankiu la.
simon: yala we dun get ang pao sia. boss give u only..
me: eh? how come eh?..

i mean, he paid fer me is one thing.
e ang pao is another thing.
20 bux lar eh..

so i asked him.
if its mine or he accidentally placed it der.

"for you. good luck" he replied.
awwww...
sweet kan my boss..
=)

went doc.
took mc.

met up wif myra at 1am.
lepak till like 3 coz we tak jadi pi geylang.
kinda had block picnic la.
hahah
klakar seyy..
i lorve her fone.
nvm..
maha updates each other..
mlm raye org pat uma kiter pat bwh blk plak.
my parents went geylang.
dats y.
around 3 we went home la.
sok raye seyy..
tkkn nk stay pai pagi kan.
hahaah..

received alottt of msgs from my frens..
and yeah..
andai sikap atau kata dya menguris hati sape2..
sempaena hari mulia ini dya pinta dimaafi..
halalkan makan dan minum dya jugak ok?

to bestest sis Fyra n Fyda
aku nk minta maaf ni.
lau slame ni aku ade sakitkan hati korang ke,
terkasar bahase ke, sumer happens fer reason...
halalkan makan minom aku au.
n yeahh.. 7 yrs of our frenship.. means alott to me.
raye jgn lupe dtg uma aku k?

to my dearest ayg, nurrizman
i noe ive not been a gud gf all this while.
im sorie. but i hope ur happy wif me all this while.
coz ther is not even one day dat i feel unhappy being wif u.
simply no regrets..
mayb its obtascles dat we haf ta overcome..
tapi, i juz nk u tau yg im thankful havin u as my ayg.
i nk minta maaf andainye terkasar bahasa, tersilap bicara,
termarah yg tk kena, tertanya tk tentu hala,
tersasul yg tk sengaja, terpukuldi mana2,
terpekik di telinga, termoody tk semena-mena,
dan halalkan la makan n minom i selama bersame u.
dun werry, ur already forgiven..
i lurve u!!! always n will always lurve u...

to gfs
sue, wirna, haz, bedahkuz*, elly, khai, ezah, ain,
aisha, nurulll, mariah, hawa, iqa, hajar, bo..
i lurve u all!!!
dya pun ingin mohon ampun
sekirenye terkasar bahase atau menghiris hati.
jgn lupe dtg ruma ok?!!

to all whu noes me..
selamat hari raye maaf zahir batin.

Monday, October 23, 2006 13:26

Thursdae
went shopping wif ayul straight afta skool..
sumthin happened la.
i mean do u reallie haf to?
like suke hati ko la eh..
i feel so..
urghh!!!
nvm.
juz couldnt be bothered.
supposed to find ayul's pair of shu.
and so we walked around town.
had long john fer break fast.
was eye-ing fer this beg la.
59 bux!!
hmm..
next tym then.
bought my sandal at last.
n i bought a GUESS beg too..
hmm.. afta sum tots.. i juz ~~like~~ love it alott.
to dat sumone : u PAY, yes.wif MY $$$ of coz. heheh.
thanx eh..
ur mission changed to MY mission.
pe saje jek.
n i didnt noe..
tkpelah..
i throw away already.
coz its dirty..
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
u noe i noe ok.
seriously, i cant believe i spent so much in a day.AGAIN.

Fridae
and so iqa Bo rizal n yoko accompanied me tru out ELP.
kynn n juli was nor wer in sight. mesti overslept au..
went fer lecture late coz me n rizal
was too engrossed in doin e e-quiz..
hahahz..
went fer lecture.
poor yoko was der alone.
whu ask u to go first.
i sat in between eszad n hafid.
coz yoko was sitting wif rizal.
i think we talked tru out e lecture.
hmm..
suppose to pay attention kan?
eszad was funny.
yet cute.
he think he left his book pat ELP.
padahal its wif hafid all e tym.
hahahha.
funny kan?..

went fer MCG general meeting afta dat.
had sum tok wadsoeva..
hmm..
i juz hope everything will turn out fine.
went geylang wif e love, qai elly dhil bedahkuz* wan n hairi.
kecoh la kiter dlm train..
saw fattah fir afif qabir der..
bought ayg's baju n mine.
thnax eh korang fer following(as in patah sini sane)
saw nizam n liyana!!!(sweet la korang)
den we lepak till like 1 plus near 2.
hahaha..
best la ok..
coz bedahkuz* was der, wif us.
its been so long we last hang out together..
i juz had fun laughing n laughing.
elly n bedahkuz*, u noe i noe ok?..
hahaha..
tabong tabong..

saturdae
went to werk.
till 5.
todae was ok.
no one actuallie disturb me.
so peaceful..
alter my "kain"
n i can only get it back tmr.

i duno la.
i hated it.
alottt!!!
things happened.
u simply cant rewind it back.
im sorie.
i'll find it back as soon as possible.

To Gf SURYANI ISMAIL
hapPy 18th BufDae sweet..
hope ur happy wif e love ones..

sundae
again.
went to werk.
suppose to end at 5 ok.
but since no one is replacing me fer nyt shift..
i was extend till 8.
order kept coming in.
my hands are tired.
it was past 6 n i totally forgot about my "kain"
n sad to say..
e shop closed already.
haizz..

sumthing happened.
it was unexpected la.
i dun mind la.
pasal benda kecik je seyy.
mrepek!!!

went home at 9 lar ehh.
boss treat roti prata, i-duno-wat-drink, nasi lemak n otah..
WOW!!! but tk smepat nk makan la eh.
too busy..
took a cab home.
hectic sia..

met my dad fer awhile.
had sum toks.
hmm..
he seems reasonable.
i think he realize i've grown up la.
but still, i shudden take things fer granted.
he loves me alot eh?
yeke?
i duno la.
haizz...

tmr skool.
sux.
dun get to hear takbir raye.

Thursday, October 19, 2006 14:04

more n more pics la ok..

ok thanx to mastura fer e uploading of pics n sending it to me.
sorry fer being such an ass la ok.

met ayg afta skooll.
went town la eh.
was trying on my shoes..
wen i caught dis 2 guys looking at me.
dlm hati "ape ni tgk2 org.. tkde keje.."
skali wen i turn..
i shout la ehh..
"hafyst!! helmi!!!"
excited sey nampak dorang..
goshh its been mnthss...
miss those tym wen we used to hang
out together at town, eastcoast-ing together..
saw rafi n sideq too..
cute kan dorang...

den went off to skool fer e training.
e day juz sux la.
stop wif e attitude prob la..

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 14:40

well..
i cud say i haf more then enuf slep fer todae..
hahaz..
i feel like im sleeping beauty..
but i wake up hearing my dad's fone call.
hmm..
met him fer awhile.

went off to werk.
its been days i last werk.kinda weird la.
everythings fine.
dil da tk keje.
man is hardworking despite his injured arms.
ranjit da lamer tk nampak.
the rest is as usual..
haha.
yayah also known as Mr. Mum came down juz now.
yoko n boyL too.
it wasn't planned i can tell.
n yesh!!!
yayah is werking wif me..
best kan? my "oh-so-called-cuzzin"
hahah.. zaman dulu siakk tu..
yani gf, if ur reading this..
do cum down n lepak wif us okayys..
bawa yg lain skali..
rindu jugak aku pat diorang..
provided aku keje la on dat day. heheh..
best nyer..

awwww..
im so touched wen i receive this msg frm sumone
"aku windu kau. Hope ta c u tmr.. =)"

we will..
dun werry.
hearts gf**

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 13:14

hallluuuuu.
first day of school was ok fer me.
had sem pro first.
den went fer lecture.
well, this part kinda sux coz we cant sit
wif those clan we used to hang out wif..
we hafta sit according to e sitting plan given.
and it sux la.
but, i think im ok wif it coz beside me is one tamil girl.
she is very quiet.
on my left is one chinese guy.
kinda my type lar.. noisy abit.
below me was leslie n 2 of his frens.
they're nice too..
above me was rizal n hafid.
so, i still think dat i can survice..
haizz..
so much fer my first dae of skool..

(otw to toa payoh)

afta dat me kynn mas n juli went Toa payoh jalan2.
shopping makanan la ehh.
bought ayg pepper o'..
sadly, we had to eat grape fer buke since we're in da bus.
mas offer her grapes to this uncle too..
coz org kate tk bagus buke lambat2..
we rushed to mac n hav our break fast der.
finally i get to drink my COCA COLA!!!
hahaha.

(otw back to school)

my 1st days wif e babes.. were fun..
soon der'll b more okayy!!
cant wait..
click click click click click click click...

Sunday, October 15, 2006 14:58

spent a nyt wif my cuzzins n aunts
n e adorable niqita aria yest..
hehez ..

well, e check up was shiitness..
its more like a consultant to me.
went it e doc room fer like 6-8 seconds n im outa der..
e bill cost 21 bux!! plus my transport money..
urghh. ape ape lah.

met up wif ayg belorved at J.E last cabin.
den yazid, marni n afiq joined us.
i was felling very tired as i haf not slept e whole nyt yest..
lepak at e308 while waitiong fer erest to arrived.

(while waiting fer e rest)

kynn n bedah darl tk dtg..
my those kecohrable partners in crim tkde..
cam bored jugak la kan.
but, still, fyza, elly, wirna, haz and shaida make my day..
hahaha..
shaida haz n fyza..
korang tk baik au..
seriously, i feel so bad seyy..
hmmph!!
suke ar tu kan..

dey had drama pract.
i was bz camwhoring like no one bussiness wif yan's cam.
hehe..
tkde keje la kan..
den sat outside wif e love fer a moments.

(e percussionists)

(camwhore-ing tym!!)

qai came.. but tk join us fer iftar.
zila was der too.
e way she screamed wen she saw me..
yelah, kate da lamer tk jumpe pe..
i kinda missed aishah n yana.
those tyms wen we had our
lunch at SG n deserts at Haagen Daz.
tym run out so fast..

(haz fyza n me posing)

went Makmur Restaurant fer our break fast.
sadly, we hafta seperate ourselves since e train was fully packed.
met e ret of them der.
had our stomach filled wif food.
e buffet is average aje la. but 12 bux sey?
n we dun get to actuallie eat wadeva we can.
compared to seoul garden, its 10 tyms better.
seriously, i'd wud prefer ala carte.
coz they wud set e food according to e range of price per person.
i juz think dats a bit better den buffet la,
unless we reallie get to eat all we can..
k wadeva da lepas pun.
b4 leaving, we took a pic of e MCGians.
ramai la pulak kan..

headed off to town.
wif e love, wirna, dhil, ayul, afiq, marni, yazid, zai, zila n sue
wawa n bf met us der.
as usual i dun get to drink my fave drink!
they juz wont let me.
kong asam tul!!
we lepak n laugh n camwhore like always la.
its been so long..
this part i hafta wait fer sue to upload e pics first.
ONLY den i can display it here.
hehehe..

(so i get e pics ready heheh..)

yeah, reached home at 1158 sharp.
aku lari la eh til i reached my doorstep.
was shagged like hell.
had my shower, talked to ayg fer awhile n went off to sleep.

Love isn't all smiles and laughs for the moment;
but crying and fighting for what you
believe is right and will last ~~forever..~~