Friday, June 29, 2007 07:43
thank Y O U.hearts..this, i'll always remember.
Thursday, June 28, 2007 13:44
i cant believe she did that.its not dat im not used to it but this is way too diff.i hate it wen she put werds in my mouth.i hate it wen she assume stuffs abt me.i hate it wen she nag and nag and wont stop nagging.i hate it wen wadeva i say is juz "lies" to her.like dat,i shouldnt be bothered to even tell her e truth.i hate it wen she compares me wif e others.as if their all angels and im e devil here.i hate it wen she puts all e blame to me.i hate it wen she always thinks she's right wen actuallie she is wrong.i hate it wen she uses "him" as an object to solve sumthing.i hate it wen she uses me to get close to "him" juz for his money.i hate it wen she get jealous over small shitts and start saying rubbish.i hate it wen she looked down on everything i do.i hate it wen she NEVER EVER give me support in the things i love to do.but only disapprove and looked down on me.i hate it wen she only need me wen he is not der.i hate it wen she accuse me of sumthing i didnt even do.i hate it wen she wants me to go her way.i hate it wen she says im not useful.i hate it wen everything i do is ALWAYS wrong.i juz hate it.period.PS:everyone haf limits.
juz dun make me do sumthing stoopid dat u'll regret.
sumtyms i dunch noe wat to do to please u.
AAAaaaaaRRRrrrrrGGGgggGGgggggGGhhhhhHHHHhhhHHHHh!!!!!!
now i dun haf mood to do anything.think im gonna cancelled e outing wif gfs tmr.it wud still b e same w/o me aniwae.and furthermore, iqa is not goin.so..nvm.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 03:41
after sooo long of not dancing.yes, i juz did dat yest.haha..and yes, i juz got e LA 2007 schedule..yes!!!training is on every tue, wed and sat.i juz cant wait for it to happen..and that means i can only werk for a day.which is sunday..booooohooooooooooooooooooooo!!!dat simply means, less poket money.urgghhh!!PS:i wonder how can i handle attachment, trainings and werk at e same tym per week.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 01:39
went vivo fer lunch..yes wif my stepmum n stepsister..only dat our stepbro left earlier.Not forgetting our step dad whu is lazy to join us and asked us to get him sumthing.nah, their actually my collegues at werk.hahahha..but, they make me smile everyday..gosh, if only i haf this kinda treatment from my own family.
i'd be MORE than juz happy.
heh.
Monday, June 25, 2007 10:37
ok. and so i worked extra hard.to get MORE money.typical naDYA.heh.
Saturday, June 23, 2007 05:39
looked at sum photo albums in my closet..how i was like during primary skool days..how i was like during secondary skool days..how i was like during my first few years in poly..and how am i gonna be like after my poly life.yes, dat means my working life too..i've tried so hard not to think abt it..but i cant run away from reality cant i?how fast tyms flies huh?how fast things change..how fast i've left behind all my past*..how fast i've grown to be a young adult.eeewwww...the last sentence doesn't seems so rite..i mean, whu wouldn't want to become a senior enginneer, software analyst, senior technical officer at e age of 25/26..whu would decline dat kinda post which earn nearly 3-5 per mnth?imagine 5k per month. how much i can spent per day..and how month i can earn per year..goshh this is heaven!!!they say, once u've got a degree..snap snap they'll put u at e top.hahaa..i cant imagine myself..1. geting dat kinda pay per month..2. having e coolest notebook..3. being in my very own office..4. wearing those corporate kinda clothing..5. having my own LV/Gucci hand bag..6. driving my mini cooper/volksvagen..goshh am i dreaming?haha.of coz i am..whu am i anyway?juz lil miss NoBoDY..but if i ever got dat chance, i wouldnt wanna risk it.duhhh...when im wif my cuzz..(they're only 15-17 mind u)we talked about everything..they're now goin tru wat i've gone tru before..how much fun it is wen they told me they did this and that..how much fun it is to try out sumthing new* in life..and how much fun it is to be happy..i've been der. i've done dat.BUT, at tyms, i still wanna do all those things..i still wanna enjoy myself like i used to..i still wanna laugh and cry and shout everywer i go..i still wanna dress up and look fugly..i still wanna lepak wif my group of frens till late nyt, updating n bitching each other..i still wanna do all sort of things without anyone stopping me.i can actuallie, but not to e extreme anymore..ders this word called restrictions.yes, RESTRICTIONS.i cant do this.i cant do dat.its not gud to do this.its not gud to do dat.my mum says its for my own good.
me: asal sey org da tkleh buat benda mcm dulu2 lagi..
bukannyer nadia buat benda tk senonoh pe..
her: bukan tk boleh,boleh. tapi ko pk la.lau ko buat pape pat luar tu,
skali family ke sedare iman nampak.. mcm mane? ko tk malu ke?
me: nk malu watpe sey. kan da kenal. tegur je lah..
her: tegur tu tegur, tapi kan ko da leave them a bad impression on urself.
me: ouhh.. alaaa.. leceh ar..
her: and lau ko buat benda mcm dulu2, ko rase iman suke ke?
me: ntah.. mestilah tk..
her: abis tu.. lau ko lum kenal family dier tkpe jugak..
me: haizzzz...
no wonder...all this while ayg dearest is so particular abt1. wat i wear2. wat i do3. wer i go 4. wif whomouhhhhhh...for future rupenyer...PS: but i dun think im ready YET.
00:38
wat are D R E A M S?fantasy or reality?some pple says dat mimpi adelah permainan tdo.i dunch noe.i dreamt alot yest.weird is dat, i dreamt about diff pple.and i dunch even noe most of them.
Friday, June 22, 2007 13:58
eversince Sazaly is on leave..i seriously got nothing to do.dat juz bore me..i've went up and down e building.in and out of all e rooms.i've read the magazines.i've been on e fone.and yes, i've slept at my table too..thanx to Mr Marrof for assigning me sum stuffs to do.i loike!!! hahahaaa..answer sum customer calls tooo!!he even asked me to follow the technician for their field work the nxt day..exciting? YES!!seriously, i'd like to see how they run these things too..at least i can write sumthing for my 30 pages report at e end of the semester.BUT..im N O T allowed O U T!!!thanx to e boss.takot nah anything happen to me.i think whoever walked passed me might think dat im getting paid for doing NOTHIN.ape tu org cakap, makan gaji bute?hah.this Saturdae, they are organizing this family day thingy.too bad i cant come.double shiitoss!!how i wish i can cancel my job schedule.(eventho i can, dat wouldn't b gud ryt?)heh.
PS: i wanna watch shrek**
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 12:54
urgghhh!!!some people..are juz plain annoying.period.PS: my happiest moment is when i see you smile
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 07:53
i cant believed u actuallie asked me to shut up.and u din even give me e chance to explained.
11:12
help!!!the past are coming back...i need strength.
Saturday, June 16, 2007 23:09
in case i forget, weird things happen todae.yes. weird wif the capital "W".i need bodyguard pls?seriously dearest boify, can i haf 1?pretty pretty puhleassseeee???you pple dunch wanna noe wat happened.urber urghhh..
and so i camwhored.all along they were talking abt shrek..i want shrek* too can??hurhurhur..only i noe wat im talking abt.heh.PS: sumone infatuate me pls or i wont...pics taken last fridae.8/6/07
lets juz make it short.we had FUN.period.FRIDAE= AWESOME NIGHT.hush hush hush...=)
Tuesday, June 12, 2007 13:48
ok rizal was funny.hahaahha..tk abis2 dgn "ape2 autopilot k"mentang2 i sat in da middle of the semi circle set of desks.he called me e pilot.hahahaah..hey, i missed fyp-ing.miss my sambal prawns.miss makcik hot dog cheese.miss my air bunge.miss my chocolatemint wif pearl.miss playing the search for e item game wif Sri dearest.miss those gurlie talks wif Racheal n Sri, not forgetting Meena, Zhaf and Nas.miss those smangat planning of everything but actuallie none of it actuallie happened.miss M319.i miss Justin, Kenneth, Joshua and Hao Han.i miss those whu keep coming n going out of my lab.i miss chantting "Jan jannah jan jan jan jannah jannah jan jan jan".i miss MCG room. and e peeps.i miss those usual lepak-ing under da blk, where everyone juz simply gather, smoke, cam-whore and everything..haizzz..hafid called todae.askin me to "kua" kejap and meet them.i looked at my watch, and say " ko giler pe!! sejak biler plak attachment leh cabut eh?"and he say " ala skejap jek. tk leh? "kong asam tul korang.this is like strictly 8-5.30pm.lunch time is 12.30-1.30pm.tell me, how to cabut.im like in da office and pple will obviously know if i get out of the office.like urgghh...this is worst then FYP.wadeva.hakim joined me n ayg.saw rizal, marina n hafid too.they're watching the Men in White movie.ayg was funny in da train.hahaa..buat lawak eh u.like he say to hakim "biar genapkan empat. lau dpt yg baru, buang antare satu drpd yg empat. so jadi empat."tk faham kan?tk faham tkpe.tkya difahamkan pon..
Monday, June 11, 2007 07:45
yes. i stayed home these 2 weekends.gosh, its unbelievable.haha.watched hikmah 3 on youtube.spent like e whole day watching e episodes.i loike..i think hikmah 3 is better den hikmah 2.well,dats wat i think..haha k wadeva.chatted wif a fren of mine.thanx ehh..like, im not stupid enuf to do such things la..haahah.anyway, thanx for e opinion or so.appreciated.but then again, not everyone is e same wat.u couples haf ur own way n we haf ours.everybody wants e best for their rship.yes, everybody need trust, love and care.but trust hafta be gain.in short, u cant simply compare ur love life to mine..period.
sumtyms, i dun understand.
wats e used of getting engaged, married watsoever..
when all they do is flirt and act as if they're not.
when they all tends to go berserk when small things happens..
when they tend to juz leave the house,
leaving the gurl there alone, hurt and pushes all the blame to her..
when they tend to be happy wif another gurl while their wife is frustrated at home..
when they tend to be so sweet and caring b4 marriage and diff after dat..
worst is dat, they start to abused their wife..
Dont they even think abt wat or how e other party feel?
if they dont, y get married den?
i've seen all this men right in front of my eyes.
be it family, frens or acquaintance
i've felt how every wife will feel when this happens.
yes!! hurt, disappointed and scared.
i've heard from pple how their marriage actually turned from sweet to sour.
a gentleman whu tries to win sumone heart and family b4
but changed to be a more sensitive and more possessive after marridge.
i've been seriously abused by egoistic guys.
not only one. but more. in short its nothing new to me.i duno.wen i think abt e future,i got scared.i dunch want all this to happen to me.Pls convinced me dat not all guys are e same.
Saturday, June 09, 2007 20:49
if u gotta choose between CASH n LOVE..tell me which one wud u choose?
coz if i were u, i'd chus love.
wat is money wen der is no love.
12:09
i lorve todae can??from the 1 day course to e dinner and camwhoring session..thanx goodness i met Jerome.he's from RNN, a NTU student currently doin attachment like me.but then again, i had fun doin e course wif him juz now.as tho we noe each other like dat siaaa..hahaha..weird is dat, its ONLY e 2 of us.yes!!!but, Mr Donald says im bubbly..hahahahha..had lunch wif Jerome todae at a hawker centre.chit chat over some stuffs..den, returned back to the training cnetre.i have to thanx to Mr Maroff for assigning Abg Ershah to send me to e place..or, i'll be lost for sure..im juz not sooo sure wif the southern side of spore.if i get lost, i tend to cry.hurhurhur..oh yes!!i got a date.a double-date.nah, it wasnt wif one of my guyfrens..hahahahaa..u all got it all wrong..met iqa gf, Bo n Fil at clarke quay!!!!walked all e way to city hall.to had our dinner at sakura..as usual i ate Beef fried rice.of coz, gossip and catching up session starts as soon as i saw them..awwwww....top secret: we 3 share sumthing in common huh?hush hush hush..omg, i cant believe it.it sux man.report strength to ayg dearest once i've reached home.he' gonna b very bz this weekends..am gonna miss him sooo much.received a text ,sg from iqa gurlfrenny.it says..DYA! U've been missed by me..had a lot much of fun wif much updates and laughter..and espcially photo taking..evry Fri we'll mit k..i 'll bring mi cam..love u lots2.
Ps: i want all. yes, ALL e pichurs taken todae.
Monday, June 04, 2007 13:28
i received a text msg.from an old fren.it says, on the 30th june, my sec skool mate is getting married.oh yes, congratulations to both couple...may they have an everlasting day of their lifes.but, he din type out e address and wats not.hmm..someone offer me a ride to e wedding ceremony.but i cant accept dat offer, cant i?nvm, i'll figure dat one soon.gosh!!everybody is gonna be der..hopefully not all..heh.
Sunday, June 03, 2007 13:08
im happy todae.my temp went down from 39.7 deg to 37.6 deg Celsius.beside cough, i think im fine now.and my mum let me go out to haf sum fresh air too..hurhurhur..ayg got his hair cut.at Kimage la ok..kyn dearest!!!biler kiter nk pi ni?excited au.ape2 pon, we go this month kays?i wanna colour my hair black wif a lil bit of highlightori wanna dye my hair wif another shades of brown or purple..i duno..ate at rex.together wif e sweet couple..yan n lala..i was asked to ate these few tablets la ok..and i only took half of one.which is e bio c.and goodness, i cant even swallow it.maybe bcoz it starts wif the letter "T"?haizz..one thing u shud noe bt me.i dun like medications.yes and i mean it.and i dun usually go to e doc if im sick unless, i have to.but it'll all go to waste coz i'll end up not eatin e medicine.i juz go fer e Medical Cert.haizz..ayg dearest bought me sumthing from Pepper Plus.thankiu dearest.Rya sweetheart gave us free donuts.and sedap la e donuts!! i LOIKE!!!ayg says i can werk wif her, rather den i werk at e piza place.hmm..but im looking forward to werk at John little..e one Mas recommend me..we'll see how lor..met my mum afta dat.i got myself an alarm clock.like finally..i wont be depending too much on my cellphone.i can barely hear anything from it.thanx mum.ayg stayed till 10 plus..den i send him to e lift.gosh, i miss him already.
Saturday, June 02, 2007 10:52
i hate it wen im sick.it stops me from doin e things i normaly do.now, i hafta stay in bed.and dat juz i-dun-noe.i hate goin to e doctors.i hate medications.i hate pills and tablets.period!
but my sickness lessen e moment i saw ayg sitting at e sofa.
awww..
and i can sense a smile carved on my face.
gatal aku eh?
hahaahha..
i heard my mum saying "ah suke la tu.. nampak abgnyer je trus senyum.."
hurhurhur..
my comp has recovered fully.
ayg is happy now dat all my documents are reallie gone.
yes, gone for good.
nvm..
ayg leave around 4 as he got dk training at 6pm.
so i get myself bz by doin some programming shitts.
and im happy.
coz i finally got it.
finished my tasks and i got nothing to do.
ayg dearest fetch me at outram.
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